Apparently, two guys are showing their affection for me at the moment. They send me hearts in texts, smiley faces, calls me "beautiful or "cute".. sometimes even "babe". I care for them, because that's what friends are for. Hopefully, they won't take it the wrong way, if you know what I mean. I just don't think I'll have a minor crush on them. There are still some feelings I have for my ex. Basically, we "broke up" maybe like a week ago, and most of my feelings for him are gone, but, I still think a little part of it are still there, somewhere.
Anywho, back to the two boys. They're both funny and sweet.. to me. But, I try my best not to.. make it look like I like them, yknow? I don't want to flirt with them either. I send hearts here and there, but not to them. I use them while talking about food, or plushies. LOL. so, the hearts I send aren't really meant for flirting, it's just about the topic. ;~; haha, you know what I mean. do you?
So, I hope you don't think that's flirting, because that's what I'm trying to avoid, actually. But, one of the guys.. he's sweet and very.. flirty. But, I can't say that I have a crush on him, which I'm hoping I don't, because there are some things I don't like about him. One, I don't find him cute. & he's weird, especially. lmfao. Both boys are weird, actually(x haha. sigh. If only my ex could change his dating ways. He is a very handsome guy. He is, really. A lot of girls fell for him. haha, not literally fell, but had a big crush on him. I did, aha. But, that was after I realized he liked me first. At the start, I didn't really like him. & I tried to keep my distance from him, because I heard he could just get any girl he likes. sigh, just like the guy I liked before him. He was one heck of a player. Anyway, back to my ex, I thought he changed his ways just for me to like him back. Realizing, he did. But, into someone worse. He flirted with another girl, which I didn't know about. & Now, is liking another one. In fact, I find it very unfair because he told me he doesn't cheat, and to trust him into not cheating. Sigh, so, he did, in fact, cheat. Apparently, I lost trust in him. & It will take forever to gain it back. He has to change his dating ways, and prove to me that he wants my trust, and that he isn't a player no more, which I doubt that he'll come running after me, begging for forgiveness and for my trust. That boy doesn't look like that kind of person to do so. lmfao. But. If I were to talk to him, or have the chance to, my final words shall say;
Dear ex,
Thank you for the memories. I really enjoyed them. Apparently, they had to end so soon. & I hope you find a girl who is strong enough to handle your shit. Because, I easily gave up on you. I hope she could handle you flirting with other girls, or liking other girls, because I can't take that. Not again. It happened to me once, & now twice.. I don't want to be in this exact same position anymore. Go be honest with yourself, you are a player. I dated two players, ugh, great. But, when you find "the one", don't be a player. Like only one girl, and choose wisely. Be hard to get, instead of easy to get. Soon enough, everyone will know you like multiple girls and everyone will get tired of liking you. Trust me, that's currently what's happening with the guy I liked before you. He's a total douche now. No longer sweet, just mean. I hope you won't be that kind of person to your family, friends, especially the one you like a lot. You're a good friend to your best friends, but definitely bad at being faithful in a relationship with your girlfriend. But; Don't be a man that needs a woman, Be a man that a woman needs. Hope you stay happy, wishing you the best. xx
~ joelle.
Anywho, back to the two boys. They're both funny and sweet.. to me. But, I try my best not to.. make it look like I like them, yknow? I don't want to flirt with them either. I send hearts here and there, but not to them. I use them while talking about food, or plushies. LOL. so, the hearts I send aren't really meant for flirting, it's just about the topic. ;~; haha, you know what I mean. do you?
So, I hope you don't think that's flirting, because that's what I'm trying to avoid, actually. But, one of the guys.. he's sweet and very.. flirty. But, I can't say that I have a crush on him, which I'm hoping I don't, because there are some things I don't like about him. One, I don't find him cute. & he's weird, especially. lmfao. Both boys are weird, actually(x haha. sigh. If only my ex could change his dating ways. He is a very handsome guy. He is, really. A lot of girls fell for him. haha, not literally fell, but had a big crush on him. I did, aha. But, that was after I realized he liked me first. At the start, I didn't really like him. & I tried to keep my distance from him, because I heard he could just get any girl he likes. sigh, just like the guy I liked before him. He was one heck of a player. Anyway, back to my ex, I thought he changed his ways just for me to like him back. Realizing, he did. But, into someone worse. He flirted with another girl, which I didn't know about. & Now, is liking another one. In fact, I find it very unfair because he told me he doesn't cheat, and to trust him into not cheating. Sigh, so, he did, in fact, cheat. Apparently, I lost trust in him. & It will take forever to gain it back. He has to change his dating ways, and prove to me that he wants my trust, and that he isn't a player no more, which I doubt that he'll come running after me, begging for forgiveness and for my trust. That boy doesn't look like that kind of person to do so. lmfao. But. If I were to talk to him, or have the chance to, my final words shall say;
Dear ex,
Thank you for the memories. I really enjoyed them. Apparently, they had to end so soon. & I hope you find a girl who is strong enough to handle your shit. Because, I easily gave up on you. I hope she could handle you flirting with other girls, or liking other girls, because I can't take that. Not again. It happened to me once, & now twice.. I don't want to be in this exact same position anymore. Go be honest with yourself, you are a player. I dated two players, ugh, great. But, when you find "the one", don't be a player. Like only one girl, and choose wisely. Be hard to get, instead of easy to get. Soon enough, everyone will know you like multiple girls and everyone will get tired of liking you. Trust me, that's currently what's happening with the guy I liked before you. He's a total douche now. No longer sweet, just mean. I hope you won't be that kind of person to your family, friends, especially the one you like a lot. You're a good friend to your best friends, but definitely bad at being faithful in a relationship with your girlfriend. But; Don't be a man that needs a woman, Be a man that a woman needs. Hope you stay happy, wishing you the best. xx
~ joelle.
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